Mundane Thoughts

.......有一點煩, but 星期五，星期五！:D I've been way too relaxed this week, it was literally spring break #2! I didn't have any advising to do, so it was just days off, hahaha, BUT i didn't wake up at/past noon everyday. In fact, I woke up at 9 everyday. Oh. Mai. Gah. hahaha. I'm so not ready for the school year to end, I need another month or something, and i'm not even excited for summer to come. I used to LOVE end of the years and summers, but this year, because I don't know what I'm doing it makes me not excited...also, this week, I felt like my life is on fast-forward. everything is flying at me. along this line, i "reconnected" with the girls this week, holy crap, we're all growing up. meixuan's engaged, tracy's graduating, kathy's going abroad with ethan, and yixuan and i 還是那麼白癡。。。hahaha. i miss the girls, i wanna have a girls sleepover and watch zoolander and talk about stupid things till 5am! but...we're really past that age huh? ...

L-O-V-E - Nat King Cole L is for the way you look at me O is for the only one I see V is very, very extraordinary E is even more than anyone that you adore and Love is all that I can give to you Love is more than just a game for two Two in love can make it Take my heart and please don't break it Love was made for me and you I'm thankful for everything we talked about last night. I'm thankful that we didn't keep ignoring the Holy Spirit. I'm thankful you were able to bring it up first. I'm also thankful you said "you know what" first. 我相信上帝對我們兩個的帶領。I just can't wait for it to unfold. P.S. don't try to decode this post, it's pointless. haha. but if you ask, i might tell you.

The Nails In Your Hands - Mercy Me The nails in your hands The nail in your feet, they tell me how much you love me The thorns in your brow, they tell me how, you bore so much pain to love me. I had an interesting thought Thursday...there was a blood drive Tues-Thurs, and I went after class on Thurs, but I went an hour before they were gonna leave cause I didn't wanna wait. Anyways, I went through the whole process of them asking if I had AIDS or if I've sold sex, which I always laugh at each time I do this. Then they poked a hole in my ring finger (ugh, i hate this part the most, it hurts SO much more than the actual drawing of blood) and the push my finger to get blood out, what the fart? After that he measures my blood pressure and heart rate, and then proceeds to tell me "your blood pressure's too low and your heart rate's too fast, you can't give blood" WHAT WHAT WHAT. YOU POKED A HOLE IN MY FINGER! I was then very bitter. hahaha, not really, because ...

Pharaoh, Pharaoh, oh baby let my people go! I only have less than 5min before i have to go upstairs to chapel (which i found out this morning that i had to sing at...WHAT WHAT WHAT! @.@) so i've gotta do this quick. I got into the abroad program to Egypt!!! I found out yesterday via email, they said it was supposed to be today, so i didn't think about it at all,but when the email came i was like O_O i didn't even believe it, i re-read it 4 times to make sure i got in...haha. whee! egypt! oh and israel too! wow wow wow! hahaha, i'm excited! plus, enoch's going too, which is like the cherry on top of an ice-cream sundae! this also means, hardcore working this summer to earn money...whee! ok, time to go. Praise Jesus! edit// AH! i'm so excited! i can't believe it though, but now it kinda depends on financial aide, cause if i don't get enough gold, i can't pay for it, then i needs to stay in the freezer...nooooo! pray pray! i'm suddenly uber excited...

oh boy what an interesting weekend it was. hahaha. praise Jesus though, i loved everything about this weekend; from the very "loved" friday till the very last minute last night, i loved it all. so on friday evening, yixuan and i got on the road to holland. and i don't know what it is about us two being on the car alone, but we went crazy. ahahahahaha, such good times. we blasted music and did silly dances, and laughed a lot . i love doing stupid things with her :D anyways, we arrived at a chinese buffet first, and while stuffing our faces, we played a buncha mind games. muahahahaha. oh, torturing people is so fun. >:] okkk, i'm not gonna do a detailed run down, just sparknotes and highlights. i liked P.Yip's saturday morning's sharing, it was about missions and stuff, ahhh, i miss mission trips! and sat night's sharing by shi mu was really real (haha, what?), i don't know, it's hard to write about how i felt, but it was definitely thought provok...

I am SO loved!!! I can't believe it. 上帝，祢太愛我了！！！I woke up at 6:30am today because of rehearsal. And the remains of last night's feelings (see post below, or not, it's just emo, hahaha) were still lingering around, so I was going to practice like "muh..." But as soon as the sound of worship echoed in the chapel, a smile stretched across my face, but it didn't last long. So let's fast forward a little bit. 9:50am comes around, my musicians get into place and start jamming on the prelude, at that point, my smile was huge - I was just so happy to see them jamming like that and playing as a team, and my last time with them too. Then suddenly, someone pinches me from the back, I turn around and I see Justin "Umma" Kim!!! I promise this is the first time he's come to chapel the two years he's been here. I was SO happy to see him there, AND he brought David Lee! I was so shocked. Immediately happiness rose like 10 levels. I was already so happy t...

心碎之後－溫小平 你可以大聲說出你的痛苦 你可以大聲喊出你的傷悲 你可以大聲叫出你的無助 你卻不要放棄希望 你可以大聲說出你的痛苦 你可以大聲喊出你的傷悲 你可以大聲叫出你的無助 你卻不要拒絕明天 如果你的心 成了乾渴的田地 求上帝的愛 讓他開出花朵 如果你的心 已是碎成了片片 讓上帝的手 摸過你每一個傷口 不知道為甚麼突然特emo。突然覺得壓力好大。但祢在掌權，我還怕甚麼呢？我還擔心甚麼呢？我知道我的一生在祢手中。this is possibly the first time i "blogged" in chinese...haha due to thoughts only processing in chinese right now, but that's all. Jesus, I surrender.

taken 3 months ago on mama's bday ~ (why does 爸爸 look like a midget...?) Happy 32nd Anniversary 爸爸媽媽！！！ this is unbelievable. who would've thought that these two stubborn, angry, and evil people could stay in love with each other for so long. grant it, it hasn't always been lovey-dovey, and if anyone's to testify that it hasn't been lovey-dovey, it's me and guh. my parents' story is far from the way the song i posted before this. hahaha, but hallelujah, through the love of God, they "remained" in-love with each other! even though their story is not the ideal love story, their story clearly shows the work of God within it, and each year i see them love each other more and more. i pray that one day i will find someone who will 同心 serve and love God with me as they do. eeeeee, happy birthday 32nd anniversary 爸爸媽媽～ i love you!

"What" and "If" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? What If? - Colbie Caillat What if this could be a real love A love, a love, yeah I don't know what to think Is this real or just a dream In my heart is where you'll be I'll keep waiting till we meet What if were made for each other Born to become best friends and lovers I want to stay right here In this moment with you Over and over and over again What if this could be a real love A love, a love, yeah I write our names down in the sand Picturing all our plans I close my eyes and I can see You, and you ask, "Will you marry me?" Is it made up in my mind? Am I crazy just wasting time? I think this could be love I'm serious What if we were made for each other Born to become best friends and lovers I want to stay right here In this moment with you Over and ...

哎唷我的媽呀！！！hahaha, haven't used that in forever. always reminds me of the ohio girls during winter retreat...crazy. so, it's been almost 2 weeks and i guess i'll finally blog about it, or blog for the matter...my posts have all been birthday stuff...goodness, so many birthdays lately...anyways, so two weeks ago, on spring break, the day after disneyland, my crippled-ness resurfaced. my foot hurts like crazy! especially today, i don't understand. why! ㅠ_ㅠ i finally decided (and forced by mother) to go see someone about it...appointment's on Monday, so we'll see what the doctor says. what if he's like "you're stupid, nothing's wrong, lose some weight." wahhhhh. depressing. anyways, pray! i haven't asked people to pray for my foot cause i feel like it's so stupid, i have no idea why it hurts or how i injured it, so i just don't tell people about it...hahaha. school has been so boring lately. i do not like rel 295. i super enjoy prof ...

edit// ba and ma were ordained 8 years ago today!!! :D i miss anita...mama was telling me stories of her today, i miss her so much! 小蝌蚪～ you don't know how to use the computer, so you can't see this, but 嬌嬌姐姐想你～～～ she's gonna be four in a month!!! when i first moved here, her phone calls with me were just giggles, and now i can have a rather legit conversation with her! i miss my adorable little one. picture taken the day before i left for Michigan this song reminds me of her... You'll Be In My Heart Come stop your crying It will be all right Just take my hand Hold it tight I will protect you from all around you I will be here Don't you cry For one so small, you seem so strong My arms will hold you, keep you safe and warm This bond between us Can't be broken I will be here Don't you cry 'Cause you'll be in my heart Yes, you'll be in my heart From this day on Now and forever more You'll be in my heart No matter what they say You'll be her...

Two years ago with 弟弟 Happy 17th Birthday Yee Su!!! omgoodness, my 小弟弟 is all grown up, dating girls, and going to college in a year! wahhh! i can't believe it, i still remember you in all your cuteness...hahaha, i miss you and i'm sorry we don't talk as much anymore. i don't purposely reject you every time you want to skype...we'll do it soon, i promise! I hope you had a wonderful day visiting colleges, spending time with family, and just loads of fun! i hope you don't leave too soon before the summer, so i can see you! God bless you kiddo, love Him more and more this year!