I'm So Loved!

I am SO loved!!! I can't believe it. 上帝，祢太愛我了！！！I woke up at 6:30am today because of rehearsal. And the remains of last night's feelings (see post below, or not, it's just emo, hahaha) were still lingering around, so I was going to practice like "muh..." But as soon as the sound of worship echoed in the chapel, a smile stretched across my face, but it didn't last long. So let's fast forward a little bit. 9:50am comes around, my musicians get into place and start jamming on the prelude, at that point, my smile was huge - I was just so happy to see them jamming like that and playing as a team, and my last time with them too. Then suddenly, someone pinches me from the back, I turn around and I see Justin "Umma" Kim!!! I promise this is the first time he's come to chapel the two years he's been here. I was SO happy to see him there, AND he brought David Lee! I was so shocked. Immediately happiness rose like 10 levels. I was already so happy then that I even ran over to John to give him a hug because of his awesome dance last night, and he lifted me off the ground, hahaha. Then I turn around a few minutes later, I see Tiffany and Jessie behind Yixuan, Justin, and David, it just made me so happy to see them there! It was a different type of happiness, it wasn't like "oh they're here to see me play!" it was like "wah! they're at chapel!" well, that feeling was mainly towards Justin, for the others it was like "they're worshipping in chapel!" Anyways, as the service proceeded, I felt God's arms around me tighter and tighter. He was just telling me, "I'm here, I've always been here, and I'll always be here." The best part was actually feeling that, because obviously I know that and reminded myself about that last night, but feeling it was completely different. Then, filled with joy, I literally SKIPPED back to my apartment singing the songs we did today. Good thing no one saw me, hahaha. The stupidity of this whole thing though, is that I knew it was spiritual warfare last night, but I was still shaken by it. I KNEW God is King over the floods, but I was still "drowning". We always have to learn the lesson before we can teach the lesson. Nonetheless, I praise You, because You never let go of me, and thank You for pouring down Your love. I am in awe of You. I love You.