His Plans are Greater

it's been several months of chaotic changes. starting from may, my brother graduated from seminary (officially, though by then, he's been the english pastor at nyc for half a year, 9months now) and my parents also officially decided to move to japan to be missionaries. part of me was really happy for them that God has finally opened up another route for them after ALL these years, but another part of me was really sad, because i knew that this implied that i was losing my home, i was gonna be an MK. but i had to put my selfish reasons behind and submit to God's greater plan. then, i also decided to come to swbts instead of gordon-conwell, this change was by divine intervention ONLY. it was His plan and though it was not what i wanted, i trust that He has a plan for me.

i've been in texas for three weeks now. the transition here this time was much smoother than when i moved to calvin. the reasons are, 1) this is not my first time leaving home anymore 2) i don't feel like i'm "losing" my LLFs, and 3) i have a God-fearing boyfriend praying for me and supporting me. to be honest, it's actually been a really joyous transition, it wasn't joyous the few days before moving here, but after being here, it has definitely been joyous! i've met quite a few chinese people already and a few abcs, it's different from calvin cause i actually have abc friends, hahaha...but of course, a bunch of abks, (BUT I HAVE NOT REPLACED MY KBOYS) all in all, everything has been nothing but praise to God.

one of the biggest "concerns" i had prior to moving here was the problem of which church to go to. i mean, come on, this is texas, majority of the churches are southern baptists, which means they frown upon girls wanting to be a pastor. also, i need somewhere that i can really "grow" in right? since i'm pursuing this path? anyways, it just wasn't the same as when i moved to calvin, that i had a church "ready" for me...so these past three sundays, i've been church hoping, but today i went to a church that has been in contact with my parents since may (when we met them during my brother's graduation) in some senses, deep down, i knew i was supposed to go to this church, but i kept "denying" it because i didn't want to go to such a small church...but when i went today, i know for sure that is where God wants me to be. it also made me understand Frederick Buechner's quote “The place God calls you to is the place where your deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger meet.”

anyways, short ramblings of the past few months. let's see what God does in the next few :)