Mundane Thoughts

this is my cousin, tiffany (小齊姐姐) : she's my favorite, i like laughing with her, and we like laughing at each other :D she's moving to SF today, and even though i'm not even in tucson, i feel like she's leaving me...two years ago, when she graduated from Berkeley and moved back home to tucson, we got a lot closer, and when she moved to NY to get her masters at NYU (yes, i'm trying to show you how smart she is...hahaha) i was super sad, but this year, we had another awesome summer together, and i think as i'm getting older (or...as we're all getting older) all of us cousins are getting closer, i love it~ because when we're all old, we can sit around at someone's house and laugh at really dumb things, like our parents do now! :D anyways, i'm writing this in class, so it's not a really unified thought. my point is: i love my cousin! and i'm so excited for you as God slowly unfolds His plan for you! 一步又一步，這是恩典之路。你愛，你手，將我緊緊抓住。一步又一步，這是盼望之路。你愛，你

I've been sharing with quite a few people about the "personal and communal relationship" (see below) lately, and every time i go into that topic i'm trying to bring in the whole Calvin chapels thing, so i begin with how i barely attended any services last year and how technically, that makes me unqualified for being a WA (not to mention, my failure in piano and singing...). anyways, these few days, i've been crazy busy trying to organize a lot schedules for different things, and because of that, i started thinking of "well, who's qualified?"...so anyways, long story short, i had to go through this whole thing of how i really don't think this certain person should be teaching, because i just didn't think they were qualified...but after long talks with different people. EVEN THOUGH this one person might not be "qualified for the job" i cannot take away his or her chance, because that's grace. and 7 years ago, if someone had said,

my worship team had to lead calvin's chapel and LOFT (sunday service) all week last week...so i was hecka busy and there was almost no breathing time. but PTL! because homework was light, hahaha. anyways, so then i had to be at all the chapels (even though, i technically should go anyways :P) but it made me love calvin's chapel and loft! i went to VERY few of the services last year, so i wasn't too interested, but being sorta "required" to go, i really enjoyed each time. sunday after LOFT i was SO hyper that i was sitting at my desk flipping out, i kept telling everyone how hyper i was and everyone just thought i was crazy...i had so much extra energy with nothing to do. ANYWAYS, the point is: our relationship with Christ is both personal and communal. last year, God was kept reminding me the importance of a personal relationship with Him, and last year i learned to push myself to move forward...so like no more parents/brother reminding me to do what i'm suppo

Heal my heart and make it clean Open up my eyes to the things unseen Show me how to love like you have loved me Break my heart from what breaks yours Everything I am for your kingdoms cause As I go from nothing to eternity So, this weekend happened something that I think affected me more than I thought it would. Well, I mean, it really didn't affect me at first, because I didn't think it was a big deal, but apparently it was a bigger deal to someone else. Anyways, the few things I learned this weekend (how ironic that the first week of school, everything i learned was outside of school....haha) 1) my family's really united, some might disagree from what they've seen, but we really are. my family's so supportive. also, when I was younger, I never thought I would really be able to talk to my brother. but this summer, during his move/transition to Texas, we've talked a lot more - and not just random crap, like serious stuff. hahaha. so this time, when I could

WA-LLE, not WALL-E. two weeks of WA training ended on Thursday, we went to South Haven Beach as a celebration, haha but we still had minor training there too. it was fun though, just two weeks with this team and i'm already really loving them. it's going to be a good year! training has been mentally tiring, but like i don't really feel it, i only feel it when i get home and sit down, then i'm like shoot, i'm just gonna go to bed. which is really weird because, the two weeks of training, i slept before/around 12. hahaha. monday we had our first worship, it was the first time playing with the WA team, and it was also my first time playing at Calvin. wow, i was nervous. because when we had our first rehearsal (which was only like 20min) i played so horribly, so when we had our 5min practice before the service, i was just like i'm gonna fail!!! why am i on this team?! everyone is so talented!!! but PRAISE JESUS! the worship (which was for students and parents at ori