Mundane Thoughts

why do things have to change? i'm not talking about the whole growing up stuff, that i understand. moving, i understand. different places, different people, all that i understand. i don't understand relationship changes...how do best friends just stop talking? how does that bond just break? or how does the relationship that took us so long to build suddenly become so "cold"? and all that time we spent together talking about everything , how come we can barely talk now? i know it's a two way street so i can't just blame you, but i'm not quite sure how to build this again. also, it seems like when we try to talk like before, it just doesn't work. i'm not emo. i just re-read some of our conversation, and i really miss it. i want that again. this is unhealthy, i really probably should not do autosave on my computer, looking back does weird things to my head and to my emotions - but they're also good memories. anyways, i'm just nostalgic. p.s. i

Happy Birthday Justin Youngsup Kim! i'm gonna tell the story of how we met. so around june '09, the summer before moving to Calvin, a total of three incoming students added me on Facebook. two of the 3 people shall remain unnamed, but one of them was JYK. i didn't accept or reject any of the requests because i don't accept people i don't know, but i didn't wanna reject cause i might end up knowing them, so i just left them there. then, on my first day in class, during roll call, who but Justin Kim was in two of my classes...back to back! but then i thought if i added him now, it'd just be weird, so i decided to wait till i had a chance to talk to him. one random week, he came to our fellowship and we officially met! then he decides to sit next to me in psych, but i really didn't want him to so i'd put my backpack there, but then he'd still sit there, so i gave in and let him, from then on, i'd give him an awkward smile when he came in. then o