Mundane Thoughts

it's been several months of chaotic changes. starting from may, my brother graduated from seminary (officially, though by then, he's been the english pastor at nyc for half a year, 9months now) and my parents also officially decided to move to japan to be missionaries. part of me was really happy for them that God has finally opened up another route for them after ALL these years, but another part of me was really sad, because i knew that this implied that i was losing my home, i was gonna be an MK. but i had to put my selfish reasons behind and submit to God's greater plan. then, i also decided to come to swbts instead of gordon-conwell, this change was by divine intervention ONLY. it was His plan and though it was not what i wanted, i trust that He has a plan for me. i've been in texas for three weeks now. the transition here this time was much smoother than when i moved to calvin. the reasons are, 1) this is not my first time leaving home anymore 2) i don't fe

sometimes i wonder what i would be like if i didn't go to calvin...pretty stupid thoughts since i did  go to calvin, but it still makes me wonder. maybe when i meet God, He can show me what i would be like if i didn't go to calvin, it can be like a movie scene of "if you had done this..." haha and once again, i end with a picture.

I've been home for nearly a year now and i'm super thankful that God has brought me back, and I know why He's brought me home this year too, but truly and honestly, I am so glad I left. So many things affirm my belief that people need  to move. Don't get me wrong, I love living at home, I love my parents, I love TCMC, and I really do like Tucson, but man, oh man, people NEED to get out there! So surprisingly enough, I'm actually super excited to move again (this does not sound like me). This year I've been back has allowed me to "leave the past behind", I've seen what the past is like, and I don't want it, I may miss it at times, but it's no longer the same, so...I'm done! In some ways, it's really great to have this "burden" off me, to no longer be tied to the past and to no longer...well, long for it. I guess, I finally got closure, hahaha. On another note, this past half a year has been so  difficult being long dista

Even though i rarely update anymore, this is a tradition and it shan't be broken! well, just cause they're good memories to look back at 1. What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before? graduate from college 2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i don't think i actually had a new year's resolutions...hahaha, i don't think i have one this year too (this is the exact same answer i had last year... 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? no 4. Did anyone close to you die? no 5. What countries did you visit? none! so sad, i went to so many in 2011 6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012? um...it's still money, i'm pretty sure this has been my answer for the past 3 years...hahaha, which make sense cause the past 3 years were college... 7. What date(s) from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 06.17.12 because