Mundane Thoughts

why is paper writing so hard? i used to be so good at BSing, but now that it's REAL stuff, i cannot BS. hahaha, my problem with paper writing is actually writing it. i know what to write about and how to write it, i just don't do it. what is wrong with me? so even though i'm doing online sem classes, i'm going through the finals stress like everyone else...but mine is just filled with paper writing...the only exams i've taken for seminary so far is greek...haha. i think not being in a classroom with other students and just listening to the professor's lecture makes me not as literate...like i'm not as good with my words anymore...or maybe i never was...hahaha. ok anyways, FAVORITE SEASON IS HERE! and family reunion coming up!!! super excited!!! whee!!!

typically around this time of the semester, i'd be really stressed out and going through death weeks. i'm kinda missing that. well not in the crazy sense of wanting stress and tests after tests. but i work much better under pressure, hahaha, ok so maybe a little in the crazy sense. anyways, i think i'm a little stressed out, there's actually quite a bit of stuff to do and things are getting harder...i'm starting to be more studious cause it's piling on and i don't like it. i had the best past weekend in cali two weekends ago. D.A. Carson was a kick butt speaker and his content was amazing! makes me want to transfer to trinity just to hear him speak, hahaha. yup, it was a good weekend of spiritual nourishment life has not been exciting enough for me to blog about. i do want to point out one thing though, i'm very  thankful for those who've convinced me to go android, i really really really ridiculously like my phone! it is amazing and i'm tha

yeah that's right, it's instagrammed. last saturday at karaoke night jerry and liyuan sang  孤單北半球  and i was already using all my energy and eye muscles to not cry, but now every time i hear this song i tear up, so even though i really wanna look at the lyrics, i still haven't because i never finish reading it, hahaha. ok, so after enoch left on thursday, i actually haven't been as depressed as i thought i would be. i don't think it's hit me yet or i haven't realized how long it's gonna be till the next time i see him. i don't know, but praise God! and there's so much to be thankful about so even though i miss him incredibly much, God has given us so much. also friday morning when i was going over my bible study stuff and i was on biblegateway, the bible of the verse on the home page was Psalm 37:4 " 又要以耶和華為樂，他就將你心裡所求的賜給你。" and it's not so much the second part that got to me, but the first, and i was happy. on another note, I

"Sadly, very few read the bible, as Gordon Fee titled one of his books, 'for all that it's worth.' As I have observed as both pastor and educator, there are many ways people read the Bible. There are "service" readers, those who engage the Bible when i is presented during a weekend service, and that is all. Then there are devotional readers who take bite-size bits of Scripture through secondary conduits (devotional magazines or books). This goes light-years beyond the 'service' reader because it encourages reflection on a text, but it is far from the feast the Scriptures offer and the mind needs. What is required is studious reading: an open Bible, a dictionary and concordance nearby, and time to reflect on what the psalmist described as 'a lamp to my feet and light for my path' (Psalm 119:105). This is the foundation of the Christian mind. A biblical worldview - a view of the world informed and shaped by the Bible - has always marked the mos

so i've been catching up on 30 Rock, because during my semester in Israel i wasn't able to watch anything, and now during my free trail of netflix, i'm finally catching up on season 6! anyways, from episode 2, Jack says to Liz, "the fact that you thought you had to keep chris...the fact that you kept him from me simply proves that it doesn't matter whether i meet him or not. you already know what i would say, and you know i'm right." ah, jack donaghy, you are so wise. on another note, my parents are finally  coming back soon, finally . but by soon, i mean two weeks and one weekend. WHY! so long! as thankful as i am that the Lu's are letting me stay at their place while my parents are gone (so enoch can stay at our home), i really cannot wait to move out of here. the kids drive me crazy, and i LOVE the kids, but oh. mai. gah. i get woken up at 6am from screaming kids. this morning, anthony was crying and screaming because he didn't do his homework

i think it's probably time for an update, haha, it's been more than two months. in these two month's i've become a GRADUATE student. what the heck? seminary is quite boring...hahaha i think it's cause i'm taking classes online and they're really boring classes too. anyways, i'm glad though, getting into gordon-conwell and being able to take online classes first. this past two months have been a blessing. i'm thankful that God allowed Enoch to be in Tucson this summer, because neither of us expected it to happen before graduation, and getting a summer and more together was truly a blessing. neither of us will know what our next step is, but for now, we're thankful! being at home has been a huge blessing too. my parents love me SO much. they're in china right now on a mission trip, in a super rural area, and it makes me miss them super much. i really respect my parents for willingly go to an area like that and to come back scarred for life, bu

we had 家庭禮拜 tonight, even though it was with enoch, who's technically not "家庭" and missing guh, but it was really nice. it was an hr of sharing and praying. God is good. i'm so blessed with a family like this. we were able to talk about future, challenges, unknowns...and then just pray. ahhhh, love it! been talking to God a lot these few days, cause my future is so unknown right now. but slowly, i see His plan revealing. i'm excited. He's so awesome. i'm glad He's in charge and planning and not me. yay! PTL. more to come on what's next~

June 17, 2012

teeheeheehee!!! سنة واحدة~

i used to think these comic things are kinda creepy because of their eyes...and they still kinda are aren't they?! hahaha, but this one was cute~ my mother gets in tomorrow night, then there's retreat this weekend. i really need "a weekend off" but too bad i already know this weekend will be insanely busy too. the good thing is i have nothing due next week, hallelujah. these two weeks have worn me out already, but after next week's "no-work-break" the following week will be 3 weeks of death week then...dun dun dun graduation!!!  holy crap. 我要畢業了！PRAISE JESUS. if i graduate...hahaha. oh dear. ok more studying time! yoush!

this week was the beginning of my many death weeks till graduation...i'm done with everything for this week though, there's only a reading for tmr's class, and no class friday cause of Good Friday! yay Jesus for dying for us! but death week is coming again next week, oh dear. but! mommy is coming on next thursday! yay!!! i'm excited for retreat :D anyways, i need to get to bed, i'm just thankful i'm done with this week. hallelujah 讚美主！

i keep reminding myself to update and to update about praises and happy events, but amongst all the busyness, the only time i wanna update is when i'm dying...i really miss my piano right now. when i was at home, whenever i got stressed doing homework or if i had thoughts i couldn't express, i would just go play piano for hours. and after that, i'll feel a lot better and be recharged to do homework again. but i have no piano to do that right now...i'm just sitting here dying as i write paper after paper. so i have half a semester left till graduation, and it is the most insane last half semester...i'm actually really scared of these upcoming weeks. God help me! i can't do this by myself! give me self control to not procrastinate, give me motivation to finish strong, and give me the wisdom to write intellectual papers!!!! hahaha ok, that's enough. time to get back to my papers. asdfghjkl.

i have a lot of thoughts right now, and i'm not sure how to process them yet. which is why i'm on here word-vomiting. about a month ago, i had a post about how girls have too much drama, i'm stil sticking to that. i really hate it though. 很麻煩。i mean, it's good that i'm not a boy, but oh man, how great would it be to not have all these drama. God's been teaching me a lot of lessons right now, and i'm scared. hahaha, all these lessons require people relations and wisdom; one wrong step could 絆倒 someone, and i don't wanna do that. in my leadership class, we talked about how every strength can be a weakness and every weakness can be a strength. and thinking about that, i'm really thankful for 某某人 being in my life. i think i've always seen  "their" (yes i realize that's not the right pronoun, but i'm trying to hide this person's identity...hahaha) truthfulness as a weakness because of the lack of grace/empathy. but lately, i'

God loves me sooo much! i got my spring break ticket to go home yesterday! PTL! i've been searching for tickets for weeks, but it's always been more than $500, at least flights from GRR - TUS, but randomly yesterday, it dropped down to $331, and just for the dates i needed too! a day earlier/later it was $500-$700! so PRAISE JESUS! i'm going home for spring break! YAY! school has been...blah lately. i like my classes, but they're also really tedious. all the homework take FOREVER to do...and the readings are like a billion pages. being a religion major is not easy...hahaha. anyways, God's been really good lately, and i'm thankful. i know that all other "glitches" will be fixed by Him, i really shouldn't try to do anything, cause He's in charge! yay! i love my God! 

it's another sleepless thursday for me...i keep trying to do the homework before hand, but there's too much! and then there's prayer meeting on thurs nights, so then i have to do hw a lot later...and then i stay up doing it till way too late. gah! i hate not sleeping on time! it messes up my mornings!!! blah. i should probably just get to work right now instead of writing a blog. hahaha. anyways, pretty good week. thankful for everything that happened :) God is good~ on a side note though, boys are dumb. they always get mad when they're hungry. and then they're full and they're happy again, and then they forgot about what just happened. 哥哥爸爸都這樣。真受不了。time for homework! biblical theology, i will conquer you!

Exodus 34:21 "“You shall work six days, but on the seventh day you shall rest; even during plowing time and harvest you shall rest." at my internship today, the youth pastor said to me, "we're gonna take Tuesday off, because even amongst all the 'churchy' stuff that we do, we need to rest." and he gave a short spew about how the thing pastors do least is rest because their sabbath is their job. and i thought it was really interesting, because i've been feeling so stressed lately (it's only the 2nd week...) and it's not just school work that's stressing me out, it's stuff with internship, stuff with Chinese church, stuff with WOG, stuff with future, the list is never ending...Sunday are also my busiest days, it's just one thing after another, so i don't really "rest" on Sundays...but i think Todd had an interesting reminder today, that we absolutely need to rest, because God doesn't delight in our service either

first day of school was not bad today, but first day of classes are never bad...but i can already foresee a really busy semester even though i don't have a lot of credits...the weird thing of today though was the PE prof was like "Jocelyn Ong? Do you go by Jocelyn?" I was like "yes" but in my head, i was like whaaat? that's not an asian name, i don't have an "alternate name" but if she didn't mean it like that...there's no shorter version of that name...hahaha, it's the first time someone's ever asked me that...anyways, tomorrow will be more deadly, because i have to go to my internship in the morning...either way, PTL for a new and final semester!  

i would not want to be a boy. although i do think they have a lot of things "easier"...but i like being a girl, and i especially like being a girl in our family :P but this week has definitely made me not like being a girl...girls have WAY too much drama...even the best of friends can have ridiculous drama, i am not made for that kind of drama. i can't do drama. i don't care for drama. i run away  from drama. today, i had lunch with cho and daniel, ahhh~ so relaxing and SO funny! being with them was SO much fun. i'm so glad i got to have lunch with them. made this week a lot better. i don't have to worry about feelings...hahaha, and i can talk about anything i want with them! oh~ thank God for this korean family! thank you boys! you guys are the best :) it's been quite a while since i've updated this blog...but since xiao chi jiejie does this every year, i copy her :P 1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before?